Friday, April 29, 2005

a not so perfect life..

ok im now back and i have to clear some things beforehand..

finally, after a long month vacation, i now have an ojt..i will start on monday at the MANILA TIMES.. and if there's someone out there na wala pa pong ojt, call them nalang dahil i think may positions pa as of now..malay nyo, sa times pala ang faith nyu..hehehe

i HAD a boyfriend..meaning, past tense..oo, si marlon aka aussie boy..at goodluck, it was the best eleven days ever.. im scared to tell this to my friends because i feared that they may judge me..yup, ive been dumped again, but its not the end of the world for our relationship yet, we decided to be friends..mahirap na rin ang long distance relationship so we decided not to hang onto the relationship until im really ready to introduce him to my parents. that's the biggest issue so far, i guess he did go so fed up because we have such nosy neighbors na sobra na kami kung pag-chismisan.. he did that for my own good naman, after all, he'd just be here for a month, after that, aalis din sya, pag naiwan ako ng mga chismis, ill have to deal with that alone, and we couldnt bear seeing that ryt?

so yun...masaya na ko na this is what happened..i got so giddy and all to announce na may lovelife na ko ulit..sorry kay ,mela, indi ko nasabi agad to..hehe...pero naka-recover agad ako grabe..ang galing galing ko..

poldy---havent told my mom yet..i guess i still have to hang onto it until im ready to face the consequences..i got my grades na, am satisfied about it...pero sablay talaga ung poldy..sobrang ung apat na subjects nasa line of one..may flat one pa ko sa photojourn..arrgh..badtrip talaga...

and to my teddy bear, i dont know if you could read this, i guess there's some other time to continue the relationship..you taught me a lot of things and i would never ever regret having you again in my life..youre always welcome to come back...if you would still come back here sa philippines...arrgh..ang korni ko..love mo naman ako eh..hehe..

sa friends ko nandyan lagi, sobrang love ko kayo..haay, excited na ko sa times on monday..see you nalang sa paligid ng port area..hehe...tc y'all!!!

Sunday, April 03, 2005

life or something like that..

so sorry for being too vain.. i did got carried away..

my life sucks right now..i got confident with my political dynamics that i got really disappointed with myself.. and i have to take it over again, problem is, how am i gonna be able to explain that to my mom, who by the way, is still in deep shock..about my lola's death..

by the way, yup, my gran's dead.. while hoping that all this is just a dream, my world and reality come crashing right through my very own eyes.. dead granma, failed poldy,no ojt yet.. and this year's supposed to be lucky for me? who am i kidding!

suck..suck suck..that's all i could think of..i have to (just what patrick mentioned)...REFORMAT my life.. i have to be uber serious about everything from now on..i dont care if i become dull, all that matters is that i could graduate in time..

i hate my life..so bad that i wanna die together with my granma..arrgh! i just hope i could have my ojt as soon as possible..anyway, pls help me..do you think i should take summer classes or just take poldy on my 2nd sem of 4th year? i still have my ojt, if i would attend summer class, it would be difficult for me to focus on both..but if i take it on 2nd sem, i would have lots of load.. im really confused.. i dont wanna disappoint my mom and my family, but its over..

my only problem's how im gonna be able to spill it to them...

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