Thursday, November 12, 2009

Holy Whoop!

Okay, so ze guy friend texted me yesterday telling me that he's on the way home from Baclaran because he prayed the rosary there. Is this another sign? Is this what the tarot card reader meant about someone who's gonna be so good for me? I mean, seriously, I couldnt find someone like that anymore. Or it would be SO RARE.

But again, he's so like me! Someone who will go to every church there is possible. Very freaky. At first, I thought he was cocky, like some other guys I know, but then he proved me wrong. And its so important for me that a guy is faithful to his religion, but this, is so beyond. Really. And its making me so happy. Plus, when my Mom and I fought the other night, he didn't consider my side. He just said that I should reconcile with her and just do whatever I'm told. Good boy much? :P See? When God closes a door, He definitely opens a bigger door. But I don't wanna jinx it yet. Let's see how the plot thickens. hahaha.

Career-wise, my regularization is up already. Hence, more benefits for me! Yay! And definitely bigger opportunities for me. Good move.

I am finally realizing that I am reaping all the benefits now. Maybe moving forward is the best decision ever. Yes, I may be single for now, but I am definitely luckier. My December may be a little sad because I feel as if I lost a family, but then, I am surrounded by friends and a possible love life, so I am all set. And next year, it will definitely be a better and bigger one. :) God is really, oh, so good to me. :)

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Speaking of Christmas, I am just so psyched for this one! Maybe because there are so many blessings that are definitely pouring. That sometimes, its so overwhelming already. But in my case, its a good thing. Really, really. hehehe

I have to start on my Christmas shopping already! I booked Malyn to go with me next time. Hehehe. I need a woman's perspective from now on. :P

Ciao everyone! :)

Irreplaceable

To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left

Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that's my stuff, yes
If I bought it please don't touch

And keep talking that mess, that's fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time?

And it's my mine name that is on that tag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you

You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up that chick and see if she's home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?

Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys
Hurry up before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool, talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I'll have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So since I'm not your everything
How about I'll be nothing, nothing at all to you
Baby I won't shed a tear for you, I won't lose a wink of sleep
'Cause the truth of the matter is replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute

You could pack all your things, we're finished
(You must not know 'bout me)
'Cause you made your bed, now lay in it
(You must not know 'bout me)
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

---- Can I just say that this is my song?!? Go B! :)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Freedom, and rising from the ashes

How do you know when youre finally free?

--- It's when you can finally get whatever you want without someone pounding you head for questions that you don't even wanna ask yourself. Its also when you think you want something but you cant ask for everyone else's approval that it makes you wonder more how your decision will bring you to your destination.

Went out with ZE GUY FRIEND last Monday. Well, we werent actually supposed to meet because of conflicting schedules, but then, Mench challenged me (or him) if he could actually be there when I say so. You see, first impressions last to me. No, it actually matters about 60% to me. :P

So there he was, all dolled up because he just rushed to go there from work. He had this huge bag which Mench religiously mocked. His face hasnt changed. He still is the same person I met three years ago. He's still serious but never fails to make me feel ilang whenever he stares at me. And he's still the same touchy-feely person that will make you feel as if youve never created distance.

...But he was me. And I am him...Personality-wise.

I actually am freaked out whenever I find someone who's very similar to me. Miss Cherry, or Mench for example. All of us are so brutally frank, gets to be a bitch when situation calls for it, but so forgiving at the same time. Whenever I see myself in them, I get so jiggly that something in me exists in them.

So I am freaking out because he is the exact version of me. He knows the right buttons to push, he knew how to make me feel better, he makes up the cheesy and sappy lines I always tell myself and he knew how to ride up my stupid jokes. He knows how to comment when I feel bad about myself. Its just too, same.

Or maybe I wasnt used to it because I programmed to grow up, to be mature. Now he says Im not that bubbly anymore. He even said I was too corporate-y now. Gone are the time when we used to go all over WTC and doing that summer job. But if you imagine it, it was a four-day stint. I can't believe he still remembers how I were back then.

So here I am, rising again. And rising above and beyond. Things, as they say, will never be the same again, but my newfound freedom taught me everything there is to know about myself and the people around me. :)

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Cause If You Liked It Then You Shouldve Put a Ring On It..

How does it feel to be ENGAGED? Happy.

How does it feel to be not engaged anymore, Devastating.

But all it water under the bridge now. That one time we talked, I gave back the ring. Why? Because it was living proof that I was once, engaged. I was once talking about my future plans. I was once one of those women who loved going to bridal fairs and looking at gowns and imagining my wedding entourage.

Heck, I even managed to grab the bouquet at my best friend's wedding.

Everyone thought I would be next to Maro. They all said because I got the bouquet, maybe I will follow her na rin in a short while. But then this came stumbling my world. One swoop fell into my supposed to be wedding cake, a tall, white but chocolate stuffed inside. My fantasy wedding dress, a white version of Belle's gown in Beauty and the Beast, was swept by a tidal wave. I always knew what I wanted. I just needed the right man to do his job by being faithful and loyal to me, thus, waiting at the aisle.

Now it is all gone. I am back to square one. I am back to finding Mr. Right for me. He doesnt really need to be dashing. He doesnt need to have the wheels to get to me. But he should be loyal, and understanding, and should have the guts to tell me that forever and ever is forever and over and only me.

Now, now, Im not rushing. I am actually relaying everything to God. If he gives me the right person now, I will definitely embrace it. After all, he took my away from the person that He knew didnt suit me. He made him borrow me for a while and when He thought that he couldnt be man enough for me, Lord got me back. And now, I know He is embracing me to go with Him in a beautiful journey. One without sadness and despair. A new beginning with a wonderful life. Because He made me beautiful, so He will bless my soul. :)

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Tomorrow, the whole department will be leaving for Batulao, Batangas. I am quite excited to see Caleruega, if they permit us to roam around after the activities. Then on Saturday, we'll be going to Tagaytay. My first real outing with my new home. :)

So now, I'll be packing my things first. Good luck to me leaving the house at 4:30 AM. hahah. :P I can do this! LOL.

Goodnyt everyone! Its a rainy evening. Cuddle with your one and only. :)

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