Friday, May 30, 2008

I Passed the TEST..

Finally, the storm in our (Mela and I) friendship has already passed. Im happy that we finally talked things over and cleared our disagreements. But moreso, I wanted to thank the people who ruined our friendship. Because of them, we wouldnt be stronger than before.


Anyway, Im not saying this to humiliate people. But I wanted the lies to stop. Like I wish I couldve said the mean things that Ive "allegedly" said. And if I did really say that, I would be proud to hold my head up high and be happy that Ive ruined somebody. The worst of that, someone said that Ive been like a "demon" to my bestfriend. MY BESTFRIEND! And how about the term demon? I mean, I can be a bitch sometimes, but doing that to the person dear to me? That is the big understatement I could ever hear.


Last night, Mela and I meet up to discuss what happened. Who said what. And then and there, I realized that I too have been so naive to trust everyone. I mean, its an elementary issue, and yet it caused us havoc.


But all of that really taught me lessons. And Mela and I promised that it will never, or we will never let it happen again. So happy! :D


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Brent and I will meet after the Belle De Jour Rendezvous tomorrow. I have so much to tell him. And the other person's attempt to "do me a favor" and seduce my boyfriend to test if he's loyal to me. Seriously, there are a lot of unusual people out there. Sometimes, you just have to watch your back.


...Because Missy, you do not know even an inch of what he and I have. Wow! I never thought I would say that. Cliche, but true. And Im not even referring to that other person who used to ruin my life and disappeared in multiply all of a sudden. Hahaha. Back to that "seducer-kuno", go back to your sosyal world. Yung sosyal world na ikaw lang ang nakakaalam. Kamusta naman at idamay pa ko that I know her that well. Dear, were not even close. Besides, going to an exclusive school doesnt mean youre sosyal. Please always bear in your narrow mind that Mela and I have been in an exclusive school too. But we never bragged about being in the high-end world. You know why? Because that is too SHALLOW.


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What do you know, THE BITCH IS BACK! (OMG! This is so Blair Waldorf)


You know you love me. XOXO.







Thursday, May 29, 2008

Career Girl

Im just excited for the Belle De Jour Rendezvous on Saturday, and Jeni will be coming along too. Good thing she also joined the seminar I'd completely feel left out. Anyhow, this is an invitational thing, or rather, you have to reserve to them first, and of course, you have to have your Belle De Jour Power Planner. :D

For sure, the Belle De Jour Girls (like moi!) would be enlightened through this event. Not to mention that the speakers are professionals over the years. Hope to see some of you there! :D

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On the other hand, I still feel soaring, and it is a very great feeling. Like everything fits perfectly in its place. And the fact that I know myself better than anyone makes it even more thrilling for me. I have so many articles to write and events to go to.

As for out of towns, I guess we have to rest on that first. Or were not gonna be able to enjoy it to because stupid rain started to drench us every now and then.

I remembered when I got home last Tuesday:

I was so hungry from my trip going home from work. So I saw a stall near the market selling shakes. I bought one just so I wouldnt be so thirsty and I dont wanna eat yet not to spoil my dinner. After two minutes, the rain started to pour. AND I MEAN REAL HARD. Hence, I felt stupid walking a few streets to our house, with a little umbrella and a choco truffle shake on my other hand. Most people would think I am suicidal or something. Oh well. Stupid stupid rain. I never loved the rain. I hated it actually. But to think about it, I have to accept because it is important.

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I wanted to read the whole Gossip Girl Series. Ang mahal naman ng book kasi. The one on sale naman, isa lang. Literally. Sad.

Gotta go. Muah! :D

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Of Death..

Our SAVP, Ms. Eva departed the Earth last Saturday due to kidney failure. I feel so bad because I never thought she was THAT sick. Jon and I were texting last Sunday on how short life is. And we were even joking on where we'd buy food from now on. Bad! :P

But seriously, she will be missed. After all, she is one of the nicests officers FC has ever had...

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WHAT WOULD BLAIR WALDORF DO?

Well, I dont really need an answer to that. I forgot that Blair was confronted for the bad things she has done nga pala. But if Blair was put into place where she has no idea of what the people are talking about, what would she do? At least she could bitchfight without thinking about her conscience right? Buti pa nga si Blair. Drag.

But because of what happened, I decided to give up. Nakakapagod pala minsan yung mag-explain na hindi ka papakinggan. As Ive said, Im tired of explaining. So why bother. Masakit lang isampal sayo that you havent been a genuine friend. Pero ganun eh. Tatanggapin ko nalang.

Aww, I need a Serena right now. Yung tipong pipigilin ka habang pasakay ka na sa private chopper. fots. Tama na nga. Been daydreaming again.

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High-End Project has been deferred. But come June, there'll be more blessings for me. Aja! I can do this. I want this and I love this. Thank God CCD Team is there to support me. :D And most especially, my Hon Hon. Yikee. :D

Gotta go. Editing pa ko. In fairness, I havent done a taglish post for a long time. Muah!

Of Death..

Our SAVP, Ms. Eva departed the Earth last Saturday due to kidney failure. I feel so bad because I never thought she was THAT sick. Jon and I were texting last Sunday on how short life is. And we were even joking on where we'd buy food from now on. Bad! :P

But seriously, she will be missed. After all, she is one of the nicests officers FC has ever had...

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WHAT WOULD BLAIR WALDORF DO?

Well, I dont really need an answer to that. I forgot that Blair was confronted for the bad things she has done nga pala. But if Blair was put into place where she has no idea of what the people are talking about, what would she do? At least she could bitchfight without thinking about her conscience right? Buti pa nga si Blair. Drag.

But because of what happened, I decided to give up. Nakakapagod pala minsan yung mag-explain na hindi ka papakinggan. As Ive said, Im tired of explaining. So why bother. Masakit lang isampal sayo that you havent been a genuine friend. Pero ganun eh. Tatanggapin ko nalang.

Aww, I need a Serena right now. Yung tipong pipigilin ka habang pasakay ka na sa private chopper. fots. Tama na nga. Been daydreaming again.

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High-End Project has been deferred. But come June, there'll be more blessings for me. Aja! I can do this. I want this and I love this. Thank God CCD Team is there to support me. :D And most especially, my Hon Hon. Yikee. :D

Gotta go. Editing pa ko. In fairness, I havent done a taglish post for a long time. Muah!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The SECOND YEAR

Dear Hon Hon,

Before anything else, I just wanted to wish us a

HAPPY SECOND ANNIVERSARY!!!!

I totally forgot that I used to write love letters to you back then. But technology has taken its toll on me that it made me not use a simple sheet of paper and a pen. So now, Im pouring it here and so brace yourself. :D

Thank you for the wonderful two years. People thought we would never make it, because of the bloody fights and the grueling drama that we shared. I myself could not fathom how much this means. I am rooting to forever, but you know, time might change that I could be away from you, so Im wishing that would never ever happen. As for now, I am loving my life with you. Youre a boyfriend rolled into one. And that I would be forever grateful that I did not pass an amazing guy. That in how many times I give up, you never did let me go. You never made me feel unimportant. You actually make my fantasies within reach. And you always encourage me to do what I wanted. And you never failed to make me happy. THAT REALLY IS SPECIAL.

I hope that someday, the future will be for us. You know, the simple life that we always wanted to have. Yung tipong lima yung kwarto, apat ang bathroom, may home theatre at may pool. hehehe. I know that we have to work so hard to reach our dreams. And although we dont always have the same ideals, you never made us feel so indifferent. I just hope that you would never grow tired of me, because as you know, I have long waited for us to be together.

So with all of this, I raise all glasses, mugs, or tumblers to us, for a wonderful second year, and many many many more to come. I love you so much Honey Pat. Muah! Muah!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

I Just Couldn't Wait...

I can't wait for tomorrow..

I really really cant wait..

Yes my dear friends, Hon and I are turning TWO tomorrow. Surprising as it may seem (especially for us) that we are REALLY REALLY going this far, we are quite overwhelmed about the ecstatic reality. Seriously now, the fights, the tears and the drama, it was all worth it. I could never really look for a greater boyfriend than Pat. Like even when I wanted to stay away from him, he never let me. Because he knows how miserable we'd both be without each other. So I am guessing this is really for keeps.

I SO SO SO SO SO LOVE YOU!!!

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Updates, Updates:

My dearest goddaughter Avi celebrated her party last Saturday. Saw college friends like Michi, Brenti, Daisy, Mother Earlie, Icy, Karlo, Camz, Marlene, Kate and Jenny. We were even planning on another get-together. I really hope I could come since theyve decided to do it on a Friday night. :D

Town Fiesta was also fun because Brent is around. He invited himself to go to our house, which we gladly accepted. Then we toured the vicinity. He even wanted to go to the other side of Tondo and look at the other people, but since it is a jeepney ride away from us, he didn't budge me on going.

Maam Kit finally went back to work yesterday. And I am really happy about it. The team celebrated her welcome during lunch when we all ate together over bucket meals. Then we would also be going out next week since I'm not here on Friday. Perhaps a videoke party or such?

Lastly, I will be on leave on Friday. Hon and I will be going to Batangas for a last Summer Trip. Apparently, were not over beaches yet that we still have to go for another dip before more typhoons visit the Philippines. Plus it is a way of celebrating our Second Anniversary. So excited!

Gotta go now. Love yah lots! :D

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Ribbons and Stuff..

Meet the original Blair Waldorf. hahaha. I'm just kidding.

I was looking at the picture frame beside my PC and looked at Hon, his Ate Grace and my picture then something struck me, that I have been a Blair since I was three. Do check out the large ribbon on top of my head. Yup. I just noticed that I love headpieces when I was a kid. And now, it is really making a huge comeback. Made especially by Leighton Meester. :D

Anyhow, I'm just thankful that my boyfriend understands how I sometimes obsess things. Like the headband fever or my addiction to Gossip Girl. I know its kinda childish, but I love how they look and I feel as if I could pull it off. hehe.

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This week has been so hectic. I have an on-going layout project for our new high-end line of program, plus the reports I have to finish, buy Avi's gift for Saturday, actually showing up at Avi's party and our town fiesta. I'm also supposed to cover the Jollibee Kid's Day or something for our company but the schedule is in parallel with our fiesta, so we'll see.

Maam Kit will be back on Monday. As much as we are all overwhelmed, I feel a bit sorry that she has to not spend more time with her kids. The workaholic boss that she is, couldn't leave her staff hanging so she has to cut her leave short and be back with the gang. :P

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On the other hand, Hon and I might go to Batangas for our Second Anniversary. Since Galera might be stormy and wavy, I wouldn't want to go on another freaking two-hour boatride again. SRSLY. Hence, we just thought of a resort that would require us to ride a bus. No hassles whatsoever. He just wanted a beach getaway so it will be a different anniversary for us. Unlike last year when we just went to Starcity and had dinner at Tempura. So its kinda exciting. :D

I have to go. Will be meeting Hon in about an hour. Lovey'all. Muah!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Slow Me Down

...My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Actually, here is the whole song by Emmy Rossum:

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http://www.metrolyrics.com/slow-me-down-lyrics-emmy-rossum.html" title="Slow Me Down Lyrics">Slow Me Down Lyrics

Somehow, I feel like falling apart already. I mean, how could you anyone change when you know you couldn't even change yourself? So it goes by saying that change is for those who are wholeheartedly willing to. The hardest part is, when you feel inferior of the things that are just said. That it breaks your heart to know you could never be like that. Like you're just ready to fall apart. Just like that.

And the worse part is, no matter how hard you try that it is not really hurting you, you're just shattered. That you could never really depend on anyone but yourself.

AYOKO NA!!!

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Look at how the month of May is doing to me. Honestly, May is my breakup with a relationship month. And because I was used to it, breaking up is finding ways for me to mess up again. Okay, this is really serious. Let's talk about Francis. He was the first serious boyfriend I ever had. He was the one to rescue me from being in love of girls (yes, sometimes its normal for an exclusive school) Then on the seventh month of our relationship, May 6 to be exact, he said he had fallen out of love of me already. Shoot.

Second was JayEm. Well, it was a different story. I broke up with him because its not working out, But that was the last days of May. Ironically.

Lastly was with Marlon. Before he could go back to where he is from, we broke up, and that is like the first week of May.

So May for me is dreadful. But its Hon and I's Anniversary month, and so far, my curse hasn't been there to haunt me yet. Although I have been moody, dramatic, suspicious and clumsy lately, for me to cause another breakup.

He said I don't trust him. I beg to disagree. ITS NOT HIM I DISTRUST. Its the good for nothing EXES I hate. FOR REAL!

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So please, I beg of you to back off. SRSLY.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Fighting for Survival

I'm still sick. Yes, I still bark. Really bark. I bark so hard to confuse jeepney passengers whether its coming from the man seated beside me, or from myself, a petite girl. That's how confusing and loud it is. But I'm surviving. And it really didn't stop me from doing some tedious activities. LOL.

Anyhow, my weekend doesnt seem like a week-END at all. Last Saturday, the CCD team had to go to Shang to celebrate Ieuan's Bday and Ivana's Baptism (Maam Kit's kids) at Fish and Co. I fairly enjoyed eating on a frying pan. haha. Sorry naman sa first time. Makes me wanna open up a diner or something. And I was addicted to Diner Dash pa, so that was a nice concept. So after the party, I thought it was too early to go home, so I went to my favorite Divi and bought not one, but FOUR headbands. Waah! I feel so addicted to it. Or shall we say, Blair's accessory. (yeah, so when we went to Mass yesterday, Hon wouldn't let me buy one again. He said I have so many of them already. KJ!) Sadly, on the way home, I was soaked because it rained and I forgot my umbrella. Nighttime came, I was, again, so hot with fever. And that made me so frustrated that I just did our scrapbook.

Speaking of that scrapbook, I have to finish it before our anniversary. yikee.

Yesterday, after going to Quiapo for mass and look for Ichigo 100% DVDs (which, if I may include, I scour a great find of FOR ONE MORE DAY DVD. Yes, the one from Mitch Albom's book and was produced by Oprah Winfrey!), went to SMSL to watch Iron Man. The movie is sooo great. Honestly, I don't enjoy superhero movies that much unless its Spiderman, but this one found me saying stuffs like "woah" and "cool". Words that I don't normally say except for Harry Potter movies. hehe.

But really, watch it. So amazing. I just wished Gwyneth Paltrow had a lot of participation in the movie. All I could remember was her getting busted sneaking into this other guy's office and well, her sexy back in that long gown. Damn!

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Mother's Day yesterday, but didn't spend it with my Mom. Wanna know why? Because she left her kids home. Wanna know where she went? Two cities, Cebu and Bohol. Who says our family isn't cool? I have a Dad who is trekking the whole world and circling the globe while working and a Mom who travels a lot, FOR FUN. Okay, I'm just envious. I know, I shouldve been thankful that at least I went to Bora already, but hello? she didn't even want me to go anywhere. While for her, she could almost point to a Philippine map and tell everyone that "I have been here" with a condescending tone. Okay. I'm frustrated already. But I love her, I just wish I couldve been with her while she is enjoying the Mactan Cross, or the dried mangoes or the danggits and the chocolate hills. Sad.

Gotta go. I have another busy weekend coming up. Well, three busy weekends if I may add. Totally jampacked. Avi's Celebration os Saturday, our town fiesta on Sunday, Anniversary weekend next week, and the Belle De Jour Rendezvous on the last weekend. So I'm really wishing I'd get well already.

Ciao! :D

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Quarantine!

I need one. I feel so sick, well, I am sick. If I could just leave work for one day to rest, I would most definitely be delighted, but then, its just colds and cough. Argh. Im hoping it wouldnt lead to fever because I feel bad right now. And I couldn't expect anyone to take care of me. Sad.

See, its like this. Cough and Sore throat is acting up and wanting to pull tantrums somewhere. Luckily, it saw its victim, namely, Ria. Colds just wanted to impress Sore Throat, so he went it for a ride. Then Fever went lonely that Colds, Sore Throat and Cough hang out together so he also joined the bandwagon. So poor Ria now is sick, in desperate need of whatever fluids she could take, and in so much longing of my bed. Seriously. I feel so miserable. Ate Judith offered me chocolates this afternoon but I had to resist because my throat will sore. Dammit!

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I'm loving my Tuck right now. Gossip Girl's 16th Episode can finally be downloaded so I had it installed in it. So later, I actually plan on watching it. At least a consolation for me being sick.

My goddaughter Avi will be celebrating her birthday on the 17th, so that means I couldn't go to Enchanted Kingdom with the officers since I promised Nina to be there, 4PM sharp. Plus I love Avi. You see, when she was still inside Nina's tummy, I sort of helped her in any way I could. So I feel as if I have an important role as her ninang. hehe.

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Lately, I have been addicted to the Diner Dash game. It kind of contributed to my being sick now. See, I slept late last night so I could finish Level 10. But I couldn't. So I went to bed, exhausted, more sleepy and frustrated.

Got to go now. I'm running out of time to do things. I wanna rest but I don't wanna take a leave either. Bye now!

Monday, May 05, 2008

School Affair

While on my way to our house at Novaliches to go to our family outing, I passed through our elementary school. Sadly, my school was phased out already. The structure is still there, but the school-y feeling is already gone. The grounds that we used to eat lunch at or hang out is already dilapidated. Ate Lynn's store is nowhere to be found. The old library is better off unentered. LMHMC today is nothing but history. A past. My past but will never be forgotten.

Rewind to elementary, Ive experienced everything a kid has to experience. Her first achievement, her first crush, her first heartache, first being bullied experience and so. Even though I was crying everyday because of this classmate who bullies me every single day, elementary days was my most memorable childhood experience. Life in Montessori was never dull. I met my beloved teachers, that would have influenced me to take up Journalism. Ms. Cerdino was never an adviser, but the way she taught us English, giving us 20 new words as assignment per week made me love books and feel strongly through writing. Now I wish that I could have the decency to thank her for that.

On the other hand, Ms. Mel Tulio, was more of a friend than an adviser. She lets us know that we are not foes. That her discipline was merely lessons to set us for the real world. She even lets us call her home to just talk. I remember one time when I asked her about this guy who confessed that he likes me. She never judged or told me I was too young for it. She just understood.

Now I feel as if I don't wanna see what happened to Montessori anymore. Its not because of the memories, but its not really fair that it has been a void now.

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Yesterday, the Casem clan went to Bulacan to have the annual outing. Just that is has been a long time since we bonded with each other, and it happened yesterday. Will post pics tomorrow. But the place isn't really enticing. I mean, the pool and the crowd isn't what Ive expected. So, nothing really exciting, just the people I'm with. LOL

Anyhow, I finally reached my quarter-life crisis sensitivity last night. I was crying at Hon for nonsense things and getting panicked about our future. Like getting scared of the way were gonna raise our future family and all that. Yeah, it may be childish, but I'm really freaking scared of it. After all, I'm already twenty two. And I need to focus on my goals now. Or maybe I'm just freaked out of the possible happenings in my life in a few months. That is, if I get accepted or something. And everyone knows I always hate leaving my comfort zone.

I just hope everything goes well.

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Maam Kit's babies are celebrating baptismal and first birthday on Saturday! Will be held at EDSA Shang, and the whole CCD will be there. I'm so excited. And I'm gonna see Maam Kit again. I never thought I would miss her already, but you know, she's like my Mom here, and I'm used to hearing her voice or something like that.

Muah! GTG.

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