Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Remembering her...

She has been my stronghold, my wind beneath my wings, my hero..

2 years ago at this very day, I woke up one morning and found out that one of the most important and influential person in my life passed away. As my brother nudged me from my usual slumber, he was sort of crying to tell me that she is indeed taken already.
Part of me couldn't believe because I sensed that she could still make it. That she is this one strong person to overcome everything. As she becomes weaker everyday, I too, could feel her pain. I too, could feel that she was getting ready to let go.

As I made my way to her house, I still could feel her warmth, her love and the lessons that she forever embraced me. I imagined her singing me lullabies and giving me coins even though my mom forbid her too, because I might buy toys or candies. But she didn't listen to her. She continued being supportive of me. Even though she couldn't come to our school plays, she makes sure that I bring everything on my way to school. My bus driver would even tease her that the "balikbayan" is going to ride at the school service again because my humongous bag of school stuffs and lunch box.

At the beginning of my summer in First Year College, we all learned that she was sick. Worse, she was sick with cancer. The C-word was even painful not at the ears but was struck to our hearts. She stayed for a while at the hospital while we take shifts in attending to her.

She was given 8 months to live. But she surpassed the 8-month deadline to TWO YEARS.

That's how strong she was.

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Then one Monday morning, everything fell apart. My cousins were sleeping beside her. She even asked for breakfast at maybe five am. At 8 am, she was found lifeless, calmly sleeping but wouldn't wake up anymore.

Still, I regret that I haven't been able to take care of her as she did to all of us. I regret that she was the root of us all. If it weren't for her, the house would feel empty because she never failed to show us love, and most of all, how unconditional her care for us.

She, until now, lives in our hearts. She may be gone for two years but the lessons and her passions in life still remains to exist.

"Later that year, at the turn of spring, Heaven sent angels down and gave Grandma her wings. Now, she's flying, and sliding, and gliding In better days"

We will always miss you Nanay. And we love you so much.

Remembering her...

She has been my stronghold, my wind beneath my wings, my hero..

2 years ago at this very day, I woke up one morning and found out that one of the most important and influential person in my life passed away. As my brother nudged me from my usual slumber, he was sort of crying to tell me that she is indeed taken already.
Part of me couldn't believe because I sensed that she could still make it. That she is this one strong person to overcome everything. As she becomes weaker everyday, I too, could feel her pain. I too, could feel that she was getting ready to let go.

As I made my way to her house, I still could feel her warmth, her love and the lessons that she forever embraced me. I imagined her singing me lullabies and giving me coins even though my mom forbid her too, because I might buy toys or candies. But she didn't listen to her. She continued being supportive of me. Even though she couldn't come to our school plays, she makes sure that I bring everything on my way to school. My bus driver would even tease her that the "balikbayan" is going to ride at the school service again because my humongous bag of school stuffs and lunch box.

At the beginning of my summer in First Year College, we all learned that she was sick. Worse, she was sick with cancer. The C-word was even painful not at the ears but was struck to our hearts. She stayed for a while at the hospital while we take shifts in attending to her.

She was given 8 months to live. But she surpassed the 8-month deadline to TWO YEARS.

That's how strong she was.

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Then one Monday morning, everything fell apart. My cousins were sleeping beside her. She even asked for breakfast at maybe five am. At 8 am, she was found lifeless, calmly sleeping but wouldn't wake up anymore.

Still, I regret that I haven't been able to take care of her as she did to all of us. I regret that she was the root of us all. If it weren't for her, the house would feel empty because she never failed to show us love, and most of all, how unconditional her care for us.

She, until now, lives in our hearts. She may be gone for two years but the lessons and her passions in life still remains to exist.

"Later that year, at the turn of spring, Heaven sent angels down and gave Grandma her wings. Now, she's flying, and sliding, and gliding In better days"

We will always miss you Nanay. And we love you so much.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Still ranting

Uber sleepy right now and I cant really concentrate . Just that I'm always staying up late but end up having trouble getting up in the morning.I don't know what is happening to me.

Saw the trailer of Spiderman 3 a while ago. Can't wait to watch it too. I sooo wish. May 4 it is..

Holy week next week. No work from Thursday to Monday. And I am flailing to happiness right now. I get to deserve my much awaited rest. But I hope I could like get out of the house because even though it is considered vacation, still would have to reflect and all.

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My boss will be having her leave next month. I just hope everything will be okay and we'll get through every concerns while she's giving birth to her baby boy. Just that she's concerned that the team might not be ready while she's on leave. But I think we'll manage. hehe.

I'm thinking of a Saturday night party or something with friends. Or go to movies or something with kadas or something. I'm not so sure though. But maybe I'll try to pull Mercie into this. No matter how pregnant she is. Wahaha *evil grin*. Seriously, I miss my best friend already. Its been like forever since we hang out together. I am planning on treating her or something, I don't know. Anything goes.

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Badet texted everyone last night about her Thomasian. I would also want to get it already. Just that I have been one year delayed or something like that.

Speaking of graduations, My brother would have his Senior High grad this Thursday. I hope we'd have a nice celebration this time since my dad is still here in the country. I feel happy for the kid. I mean, I only had my dad for my elementary graduation. (I'm not getting bitter) but I feel sad when my parents aren't complete for my big day. Of course, I could understand it, but still, it feels incomplete.

Anyway, I have to go already. Am aching right now.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Inuman, JS Prom and Gimik Stuffage

Hon said that I was getting used to going out already. I reasoned that I just needed a break from all the pressures at work and that we need to miss each other XD. Bad girl.

Anyhow, went out last Friday at Pelangi, Pioneer Center. (Tan, Tan's friends, Anne, Nix, Joyce, Michi, Earlie, Trix, Corrs, Kaiz,Gian and moi) Of course, they went a-drinking (really, they. As for me? I got drunk by water and a whole lotta california maki. :D) and got home at two already. Of course, a big thanks to Anne who went out of the way just to get me home safe. The reunion was a big blast, but we were expecting more to come. I really missed them. To those who didn't get the chance to join, go to the next reunion ha. Promise, it'll be fun. Just like our 4journ Xmas party two years ago.

After that, went to Nova, Saturday afternoon because my tita invited me to sing at their prom. And because I didn't get the chance to attend one when I was in Senior High, I said yes. Catch was, I have to sing for them. Luckily, I survived the experience.

Yesterday naman, familia went to Grotto church to hear the mass. Can you believe that I have been out for three days straight? And puyat for almost a week already. That I am sleepy right now, while posting this entry. I just hope I could survive this week because I was late by two minutes this morning. Cant trust my time to be accurate anymore. Oh well.

Hope in some aspect, things will be fine already. I hate circumstances that make me hurt myself or hurt the person has been undeniably became my world. Or maybe, I just want to trust that everything is still real. Because as seemingly fine as it looks, part of me is already wanting to die, or something like that.

Friday, March 23, 2007

The Color Quiz

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Got this quiz from Glai and results are definitely right about me. It's kinda freaky, considering that they are based on colors alone. Weird but nice.

Traffic yesterday is BAAAD. So many roads have been repaired this time. Know what the cause is? Election. So instead of going to work through jeepney, I swear to take the train from now on, every morning so I won't be late anymore. And speaking of tardiness, I haven't been late this March. Well, I still got five days left. Yay!

Just got this sudden news that my tita compromised me to sing at their prom. I'll be glad to, but she just called me this morning, and I have to sing tomorrow night (or afternoon, thank you very much). She is so last minute. So now I'm thinking how to go to Nova tomorrow, explain to Hon that our plans have changed, try to get home early tonight from the reunion, think about the dress that I have to wear, yada, yada. I tell you, my family's been putting me to shame for 21 years now, and they are so good at that.

But no matter what the case, I would still go tonight at this 4journ1 reunion.No family humiliation would bring me down. :D

Have to go. I hope things will be better tomorrow. Or something like that.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Train Train Come Again Another Day

The tenth month celebration wasn't entirely a blast. Hon and I saw each other at Gateway but got there late because trains are packed and people at the station were pushing each other just to get inside the train. After three consecutive jampacked trains, I finally got inside one but then, I was pushed and all. Good thing I got to Cubao station just in time before boyfriend would be mad at me for being late (gawk, again).



Speaking of trains, I love the new look of the LRT trains. They look like big cellfones with silver outsides and they look like a big cellfone screen at the front part. I would really like to take a picture of it, but people might look at me weird or something. I also noticed this fire extinguisher box inside it, and thought it was kinda cute for a train. Who knows, maybe someday, they'll even put a bed inside it. Nyahaha, that would be a wish, I guess. BTW, got this picture at Wikipedia. I just think it is soo fab and cute. But fab and cute as it may be, I still haven't gotten over the fact that I missed my card this morning. The stored value was wasted. Argh.



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I am (or we) are currently addicted to Pinoy Big Brother Season 2. I am casting my votes for Mickey to win. And I'm rooting for Jasmin to get out of the house this Saturday. I just don't think she deserves to stay there anymore. She has this weird logic for things, and illogical values for it. I just don't get her. So I really want her OUT!


4Journ1 is going to have a reunion tomorrow at Pioneer. Am really excited because I get to see them again, and the fact that it'll be held in a KTV makes me sooo happy. Catch is my closest friends couldn't be there due to work and law finals. Oh well, there's always next time. I just hope that there could at least be one day that we'll be complete.


Brother is going to his JS Prom tonight. I'm so jealous that he jas to experience things that I haven't gone through. Oh well, and chances of him getting into my alma mater is slowing down to slim. I'm not really sure if he could still get a spot for it.

Have to go finish my break. I still have deadlines, God forbid.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Ten Love Months


Its been ten months since Hon went back to me again. And I couldn't get any happier. Because now, these ten months have been really good, with more fights but getting sweeter in the end, and have gone through a lot of trials already. That sometimes, either one of us would want to give up or cry then and there.

But of course, there are lots of happy times, when we just laugh around or go food tripping or shopping or going to new places and all. It was ten times fun especially when you're with someone who never fails to sweep you off your feet and make you believe that you are the prettiest lady alive.

I have to be thankful that I got lucky this time.

That whenever I try to give up, you're the person I always end up with. If my tears wouldn't stop flowing, you just don't wipe them up, you hold me and make me stop crying. Whenever we fight, we know that we are hurting each other but after that, you would hug me and everything heals immediately.

I just thank my lucky stars for giving you to me. I love you so much! And thank you for the wonderful ten months of my life.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Screaming Mad Woman Alert

I just have to blog this out because of the recent incident.

You see, I have been working for 6 months at an HMO where most people hear so much about and been working at a department where most controversies are passed on. Yep, Customer Care.

My whole 6-month stay was a bit calm. No bloody fights, no uber arising arguments, just pure letter-writing complaints and nice members being calm when my boss talks to them.

..But this afternoon was a DIFFERENT case

This woman was screaming when she approached my boss. And the worst part was she was already badmouthing everyone and curses as she was smirking and all. Part of me was getting irritated at her, and I admired my boss that she kept cool about it. That no matter how much explaining she does, her ears are deaf to hear all about it.

Understanding her position is one thing, but making her shut up about blabbing that it will go down to a TV station or a committee is a big question.

In the end, she left, without even hearing the company's position. I don't know how she's gonna handle it, but since her case is difficult, I doubt if she gets what she wants. Case isn't really settled, but we'll all see.

Gotta go. Time's Up.

Monday, March 19, 2007

A not-so-typical day

I couldn't believe that a person could transform into an absolute snobby and stuck-up from a goody-goody.

Well, that's a personal experience for me. I described it as the ultimate level of my snobbishness and am rating myself on for it. XD It's just that my MRT ride has been sucky enough to have like a sardine-canned train, but the worse part is I got pushed more than twice during the entire ride. Though I am not that complaining because I could perfectly understand the meaning of rush hour, but rush hour has been in my vocabulary in ages and I never complained. But this morning has been different.

Imagine me, a lady in 4'11 height, being pushed and getting really scrimped and all. That made my blood rise to the uppermost level of my morning fix, and lead me to

"Please naman wag naman sana ko itulak..."

.. And the dreadful part was, despite the pushing streak, the people inside the train was kind of silent. What was mortifying enough was my emphatic voice was heard around the said vehicle. I guess I should have kept my mouth shut. haha.

BTW, It's leading me to believe that this isnt going to be an easy day. Or maybe I could be wrong..

Gotta go. finishing my drumstick. muah!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Harry Potter Stamps, Anyone?


I wanna go to France! Nyahaha. Saw these stamps at the web, courtesy of Yahoo Entertainment. Nice right? Hopefully, I could watch the fifth movie installment at IMAX. Am actually pressuring Hon to schedule it right now. :D

Have been trying to get proposals of our projects, or rather doing a lot of proposals for projects. Because when Maam Kit has her leave, we'll be left alone here. So best we could do is plan at this early time. Hopefully, we could get through. And I'll be on a crash course in investigating complaints.

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We'll be celebrating our tenth month next week. Something to look forward too. XD
We'll also be having a reunion with our college friends. Hopefully, lots will come. Just sad that I didnt get to join the last time. But this time, my schedule permitted me to. Its just so happened that I'm kinda free this time, and I missed them all and its been a year since we graduated and last saw each other. Whew.

..Not to mention I got Hon's approval and its near the office, Pioneer Center lang. :D
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Guess I have to go already. Just taking a break right now. I'll go back na. Muah!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Regular-ized Me!

Been rejoicing and all yesterday because it was my 6th month stay at work. Hence, my regularization is up and running already. Yay!

My mom is pressuring me to do some stuffs for her right now because of our insurances and health cards. And she's forcing me to buy things for the house when my pay goes up. Well, if that'll happen..haha
But I don't really know if a low pay or a high one is very important for me. Actually, I am learning to really love my job so no matter how long I stay in the office doesnt really matter to me. Well, that is if Hon isnt making me leave the office early. :D

In the long run, I also keep on thinking what lied ahead. I know I couldn't be here forever, and with the changing times, I also need a new environment or something. Maam Kit reminds me that I may transfer somewhere else, but I need to learn more. She says she'll let me grow and learn the good things about the business, to adapt the good habits and all. I soo love my boss. :D

Its a good thing for me considering that I shouldnt be here in the first place. In a world where medical terms, doctors and health coverages exist, it definitely is kinda foreign to me at first. But staying here, rewards me because Ive met people who suddenly had a great impact in my career. And putting up career goals should be prioritized now. Just a reminder to take the world over. Just kidding.
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Im craving for mangoes, ice cream and halo-halo. Summer is definitely kicking in me right now. Ack!

Have to go. Meeting deadlines and such. Muah!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Why oh Why?

Bakit ba kasi sobrang affected ka? Ha Ria?

Believe me, I asked myself a million times why am I such like this big weird person who still likes to dig up past upon people. And if I could only find the answer to this researcher -facade I am implying, I would gracefully admit my defeat. Is it because I too, am dwelling on the past? I hope I'd learn. Learn to trust people, and most of all, learn to trust myself more. Or something like that.

The devil in me, please step aside, but my company wants to visit an orphanage,or rather, wants to do an event in an orphanage. It is kinda nice actually. I get to hang out with kids, and at the same time doing my job. Nice di ba? I hope the activity shall push through.

I don't want to sleep anymore, I feel paranoid that I might see the people that have been haunting me for the past week. People I want out of my life and people that I don't even care less about. I know I'm being too stubborn, but unless I'm unsure of how I feel, I just want to distant myself from them because I might hurt myself even more. I'm fine being this way, only one person could help. And real friends.

I know I'm being melodramatic again. But I couldnt really help being one. I feel as if I cant even believe anyone anymore. Or I tend to believe, but it will take a long time to put it in my heart.

"Ive fallen in love, Im so much to manage, I think you should know that Ive been damaged"--TLC, Damaged

The only thing is, do I have to be damaged forever? Oh please mend my broken heart...


Thursday, March 08, 2007

Feeling Bad...

I feel awful today. I'm having colds right now. And I'm thinking whether to pospone my meeting with Ate Lorie today, but see it has been a pending issue for the two of us and now that we have already planned on it, I get this horrible virus, which by the way, whoknowswhereIgot!

Yes, I'm having a major disastrous breakdown on it. I hate being sick. I love being in bed, but I hate being in bed and blowing my nose up, or coughing nonstop. I hate it hate it hate it.

Before I forgot, company web is finished already. Were 95% done on the revisions also. It's actually a good-go now and some people have been sending inquiries already. At least there is ONE thing I'm psyched about. I just don't know what are we going to prepare for the grand launch.
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Next project, databases and special reports. Have to go look for updates about health now. And have to strut my stuff now or regret later. haha.

I've been itching for another vacay this month. Jen suggested I go to Tagaytay or something. Well, I am hoping for something like that. Well, Hon asked me to go to Enchanted Kingdom since I've been bugging him forever about that. Though, it isn't really a big of a deal to me. But I would want to go to Iloilo. I wanna see my cousins there again. And I wanna go to the beach. Man, just thinking about it makes me feel pressured to do that already.

Problem is, I can't take a leave yet until I reached my first year, and I'm still counting another 6 months more. So it permits me to have vacays on weekends or something like that,

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Holy Week is yet to come again. Meaning, DVD watching, nada soap operas, Gilmore Girls and Seventh Heaven Marathons (though I have even already memorized Gilmore Girls. Haha), and a whole lot of penitation and reflection. And I've made a lot of mistakes for the past year, some I didn't even know if counted as sins.

I'm gonna rest this weekend. No dates, whatsoever, or Hon's gonna come by the house, and of course, he says he's gonna bring his latest addiction, his playstation. He even made me choose what game to play, but I didn't indulge myself too. I'll just crush him to the game I've never even played, but seems like I already mastered. But again, I could only defeat him when it comes to trivias and word games. If its a car race, I'll be waving my white flag even if Ive been playing for just two minutes. I remembered when we were playing at ym with this word game, and he's been like playing for sometime already, I joined the game for a minute and I've been topping his score since then. And he reasons that its because I'm a Journ graduate or something. Yeah right.

Whatcha think, I've been meaning to go someplace really. Any suggestions? And I'm gone. :D

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Ria's Series of Unfortunate Events

I am having this Wednesday Madness where series of unfortunate events happened. Worst case scenario? I'm having them hour by hour. Here goes:

My daily alarm from Hon was ringing, telling me that he is calling. After answering him and telling him that I'm wide awake already, I've checked my inbox, only to find out that all of the messages are gone.. kapoof.. 1st sign.

Secondly, I was going up to my usual LRT Station, when suddenly, my bag's strap went a-broken. Lucky stars my bleep.

Third, after looking at the LRT glass, I also saw a rip on my blouse's left sleeve. Thought it was the last straw, but then I was REALLY wrong.

After arriving from the MRT Shaw Station, I went downstairs, only to find that jeepney were unavailable so I had to spend my precious five minutes waiting for vacant ones. Well to think of the light, I managed to be 8 minutes early before time. The only good thing about this morning, was the fact that I managed not to be late. AT LEAST. :D
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And when I got to the office, I immediately woe about my distress for the day. Thank God for the friends and the newly-found friends I have here. It made my day a whole lotta better. I am so loving this Company.

I actually thought I couldn't adjust, but seeing my other friends in my previous work, and knowing that friends here are so okay, things are really clearing up for the hardships and all. And hopefully, be regularized already since this is the last month of my probationary status and had my PA last Friday. I'm crossing my fingers for regularization already.

Well, at least misfortune made me see how fortunate I am to have friends. Oh and since I work at Fortune, I hope it would give me good luck most of the time. bye!

Monday, March 05, 2007

..When life gets you down just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.

Guess no one could stop me from blogging at this time.

Had the first Team Building of Operations Division last Friday night and Saturday afternoon where 50plus people from every department from Operations attended. We left here at 6:30 at Friday night and got at FUEGO RESORT at Laguna by 8:00 pm. Because were waiting for the players to come, we had activities to know one another. We had this one game we did in HIgh School wherein you would write something at the paper behind someone's back.

After that, we decided to eat already since it was 10 pm, and the players, together with Sir Ronnie just arrived. It was nice since we got to eat together and all. Also, weve managed to have new friends, Ms. Keith, Michelle, Stan and Ms. Noreen. Actually, we were kinda inseparable that night.

After a few rounds of Videoke, we (yeah finally!) decided to take a swim. You see, if I was a camwhore and a microphone whore, I am also a water-slash-pool-slash-beach whore. So we were at the pool from 2-5 AM. And it was sooo great.
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Saturday morning was a a bit dreadful. With just two hours sleep, I couldnt even manage to get up, although I could smell the sumptuous breakfast were having. So I dragged myself up and ate. After breakfast, some people already went home, which I didnt even noticed, and we went to the Videoke again til lunchtime. Maam Kit even went there to join us during late lunch.

At 4pm, we already went home but then some circumstances went out of hand so it led us to arrive at the office at 7 pm and I havent had the chance to meet Hon and his family for dinner at MOA. Really, that made me sooo sad. I don't know, but it did.
So I just went home, tired and sleepy. Irritated and wasted.

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But to top it all off, I still managed to meet Hon for Mass at Quiapo Church and buy DVDs and stuff at Divisoria. My life is so I dunno what to call it.

And yeah, now, I really have this worst case scenario of sore throat. Argh.

Muah! Gtg.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

PBB Season 2 and Team Building Stuffage

Yay! One of my favorite TV Show is back. But this time, it was kinda weird because the other housemates would be inside the house, GODKNOWSWHEN. So anyway, their two days have been really funny because this Mickey guy from Germany was asked by Big Brother to pretend not to speak English or Filipino. He kept mumming and all. And I felt so sorry for the housemates because they were being "connived" by Big Brother again.

Ohkay, enough TV talk already. I just realized how I am deeply immersed by Koreanovelas and Philippine soaps that I have to force myself to sleep late and all. But hoohey, I'm not getting late anymore, because my new bestfriend is the LRT and MRT. I've been like taking both trains in the morning, and whenever I wanted to go home early.

Finished ANGELS and DEMONS already. After 2 weeks reading inside the train, the jeepney, at my bed, etc., I finally got to let go of the book. And I REALLY enjoyed reading it, considering the adventures and other stuff. It was soooo nice.

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Our Operations Team is going to have a teambuilding tomorrow at Laguna. I am uber excited. Drawback is Hon wouldnt be able to go with me, but I doubt I'll be lonely. Missing him, DEFINITELY YES.

Be back maybe after the event. And being the camwhore that I am, will definitely grace with lotsa pictures.

BTW, I am loving this day because 4 years ago, I met Hon Hon again for a long time. muah!

Buhbye!

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